Storming Toward a Precipice
Reflective writing prompt: Write about a time you dodged a bullet.
Reflective writing prompt: Write about a time you dodged a bullet.
Another Night at Sea Level
– Meg Day
On the third day, I wrote to you
about the sky, its elastic way
of stretching so ocean-wide
that the only way to name it
was to compare it to Montana’s.
Lately, the sky is a ceiling
I wake to: broad & blank
& stubborn, stiff at the edges
like a fever cloth wrung out
& gone cold in the night, damp
with the wicking of latent ache.
But tonight I was walking
home along the coastline
& caught the huge moon
in my throat. There’s a man
somewhere on the planet
who has been to that moon,
who has stepped out of that sky,
& will never sleep the same
because of it. Will always be
sad or feel small, or wonder
how it is a person can be
a person, if being a person
is worrying about things;
whose eyes cannot see
what things are, but only
the slightness of them.
I think of writing to you
in this way—welcoming
the adventure of it—
& of being wrecked
Reflective writing prompt: Write about a time you welcomed an adventure
My Beshert, or the Curse of the Stolen Potatoes (an excerpt)
By Joy Cutler
It started on my 38th birthday. It’s raining buckets. It’s raining cats and dogs. It’s raining so hard that it’s raining buckets of cats and dogs. It’s also the day I have an appointment with a nephrologist to find out when I have to start dialysis. I might be the most pissed off person in New York City.
Coming out of the subway station I battle with my umbrella, the rain and wind join forces to attack my defenseless body, which is no way to treat the BIRTHDAY GIRL! Fuckshitgoddamnit!! My crappy black umbrella turns inside out, flips over and tries to escape down W. 66th St like a crow with a broken wing. When I catch up with it I wrestle it down to the ground and smack its pointy end on the sidewalk to teach it a lesson. Thwack! By the time I find the dialysis clinic I’m a sopping wet mess. The clinic is in the same building as the Alvin Ailey Dance Company’s rehearsal studios. As I soggily squelch my way towards the dialysis entrance I see gorgeous, young dancers smoking cigarettes while standing under a bouquet of colorful well-behaved umbrellas, their hands held in elegant poses as they talk. A dancer pliés as she smokes, her fuchsia umbrella bobbing up and down. Another dancer grabs his right foot and in one quick movement, swoosh!, lifts his leg above his head holding the pose as he exhales. They’re so damn perfect. I hope they all get emphysema.
(shouts) ”Don’t you know you’re mortal, you stupid idiots?”
No, I am not in a good mood.
I push the elevator button. When the elevator arrives an older guy in workman overalls gets on with me. He watches as I push “B” for the basement.
“Dialysis?”
I can’t believe he’d ask me something so personal, but I tell him the truth, “Not yet.”
The elevator lets out an arthritic groan and continues its painfully slow descent. Silence. My elevator companion pipes up.
“Hey, I just did a plumbing job at Charlton Heston’s apartment. And you know what? He’s a very nice person.”
In a voice as flat as a flattened flatworm I say, “That’s fantastic news. (big sigh) It’s my birthday today.”
I don’t know why I tell him that.
The elevator lets out a terrifying belch and stops. The door opens. I can see tired-looking dialysis patients lying on recliners with what looks like red tubing between each person’s arm and the churning squat machine next to them. Oh. Right. The tubing isn’t red, that’s their blood flowing towards the machine. Gross.
My elevator companion waves as I step out. “Happy birthday! And good luck!”
If the door hadn’t closed right then I’d have grabbed the screwdriver off his tool belt and thrown it at his head. Happy birthday my ass. This has to be the worst birthday of my entire life. Even though my kidneys are trying really hard to keep up with all their jobs, I’m exhausted. Lab tests confirm what my body knows already– walking more than a few blocks makes it hard to breathe, I’ve got anemia because my bone marrow stopped making enough red blood cells, my brain feels fogged in, it’s hard to sleep, my blood pressure is elevated and I hardly pee anymore which is just plain weird. I would love to hate this disease for doing this to my faithful kidneys, but I just can’t. Alport Syndrome is a part of who I am and I can’t hate it without hating myself too and I have enough crap to deal with without that. Right now I want to turn around, go home and watch Mr. Rogers’ Neighborhood where no one has dying kidneys. I want Fred Rogers to wrap me up in his cardigan and sing to me and I don’t even like Mr. Rogers. My mother’s right – this is all her fault.
Reflective writing prompt: Write about your beshert.
Fred and Lucille Clifton
_________
the death of fred clifton – Lucille Clifton
11/10/84
age 49
i seemed to be drawn
to the center of myself
leaving the edges of me
in the hands of my wife
and i saw with the most amazing
clarity
so that i had not eyes but
sight,
and, rising and turning,
through my skin,
there was all around not the
shapes of things
but oh, at last, the things
themselves.
Reflective writing prompt: Write about a time of clarity
Forsaken Sea – Sekou Sundiata
Always go in low tide
High tide comes
Always go in low tide
High tide comes
We always go it seems
We always go to the ocean
We always go to the ocean at low tide.
We could walk
We could walk deep
We could walk deep into the sea and never be
in over our heads.
We do not believe
We do not believe
We do not believe
that drowning is for us.
High tide comes out of the water the same way
for the last billion years.
There is nothing new.
We know when to swim, and when to wait.
We know when to swim, and when to wait.
The waves come in and go back out
For the last billion years
The ocean still emotional
Singing in our ears
Always go in
Always go in low tide, high tide comes
Always go in low tide, high tide comes
High tide comes out of the water the same way for the last billion years.
There is nothing new.
We know when to swim and when to wait.
In the car
In the car the road
In the car the road murmurs beneath the wheels
The ocean, so emotional, in our ears.
We seek without looking
The smallest token, passes and settles
into what music is about, music is about.
You could say
You could say we are dancing
And from this one thing we know 10 things
From this one thing we know 10 things
We always go in low tide
When high tide comes
We always go to the ocean
We always go to the ocean at low tide.
We see without looking at the music the water makes
We know when to swim and we know when to wait
We always go in low tide, high tide comes
Always go at low tide, high tide comes
We do not believe
We do not believe
We do not believe
We do not believe
That drowning is for us.
High tide comes out of the water
The same way for the last billion years.
Yes, you could say, you could say we are dancing
And from this one thing, we know 10 things.
We always go in low tide
High tide comes.
Reflective writing prompt: We do not believe…..
Winter Solstice by Hilda Morley
A cold night crosses
our path
The world appears
very large, very
round now extending
far as the moon does
It is from
the moon this cold travels
It is
the light of the moon that causes
this night reflecting distance in its own
light so coldly
(from one side of
the earth to the other)
It is the length of this coldness
It is the long distance
between two points which are
not in a line now
not a
straightness (however
straight) but a curve only,
silver that is a rock reflecting
not metal
but a rock accepting
distance
(a scream in silence
where between the two
points what touches
is a curve around the world
(the dance unmoving).
new york, 1969
Reflective writing prompt: Write about the light of the moon.
Life While-You-Wait by Wislawa Symborska
Life While-You-Wait.
Performance without rehearsal.
Body without alterations.
Head without premeditation.
I know nothing of the role I play.
I only know it’s mine. I can’t exchange it.
I have to guess on the spot
just what this play’s all about.
Ill-prepared for the privilege of living,
I can barely keep up with the pace that the action demands.
I improvise, although I loathe improvisation.
I trip at every step over my own ignorance.
I can’t conceal my hayseed manners.
My instincts are for happy histrionics.
Stage fright makes excuses for me, which humiliates me more. Extenuating circumstances strike me as cruel.
Words and impulses you can’t take back,
stars you’ll never get counted,
your character like a raincoat you button on the run —
the pitiful results of all this unexpectedness.
If only I could just rehearse one Wednesday in advance,
or repeat a single Thursday that has passed!
But here comes Friday with a script I haven’t seen.
Is it fair, I ask
(my voice a little hoarse, since I couldn’t even clear my throat offstage).
You’d be wrong to think that it’s just a slapdash quiz taken in makeshift accommodations. Oh no.
I’m standing on the set and I see how strong it is.
The props are surprisingly precise.
The machine rotating the stage has been around even longer. The farthest galaxies have been turned on.
Oh no, there’s no question, this must be the premiere.
And whatever I do
will become forever what I’ve done.
Reflective writing prompt: Write about waiting, or, Write about a time you had to improvise
When Giving is All We Have – Alberto Rios
One river gives
Its journey to the next.
We give because someone gave to us.
We give because nobody gave to us.
We give because giving has changed us.
We give because giving could have changed us.
We have been better for it.
We have been wounded by it-
Giving has many faces: It is loud and quiet,
Big, though small, diamond in wood-nails.
Its story is old, the plot worn and the pages too,
But we read this book, anyway, over and again:
Giving is, first and every time, hand to hand,
Mine to yours, yours to mine.
You gave me blue and I gave you yellow.
Together we are simple green. You gave me
What you did not have, and I gave you
What I had to give-together, we made
Something greater from the difference.
Reflective Writing Prompt: We give because…
Uncertain times indeed! A time when institutions seem to be wearing out but with nothing new to replace them. We’ve been here before.
_________
You’re invited to read and respond to these two offerings from 1919 and Ecclesiastes 1. You will find “there is nothing new under the sun.”
ECCLESIASTES 1
The words of the Teacher, son of David, king in Jerusalem:
“Meaningless! Meaningless!”
says the Teacher.
“Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless.”
What do people gain from all their labors
at which they toil under the sun?
Generations come and generations go,
but the earth remains forever.
The sun rises and the sun sets,
and hurries back to where it rises.
The wind blows to the south
and turns to the north;
round and round it goes,
ever returning on its course.
All streams flow into the sea,
yet the sea is never full.
To the place the streams come from,
there they return again.
All things are wearisome,
more than one can say.
The eye never has enough of seeing,
nor the ear its fill of hearing.
What has been will be again,
what has been done will be done again;
there is nothing new under the sun.
Is there anything of which one can say,
“Look! This is something new”?
It was here already, long ago;
it was here before our time.
No one remembers the former generations,
and even those yet to come
will not be remembered
by those who follow them.